03 Jan 2026 - nzge
we are all collectors one way or another. collector of ideas. collector of images (photography), sounds (our playlists) this can be seen as a manifestation of being observant. i believe there is correlation, and perhaps causation. those who ‘collect’ more are often more observant of the world. and being observant is meditative, being present. seeing every little beautiful detail in the world. be more of a collector
7.26.26 i have this incessant compulsion to archive my personal history in the form of useless brochures, homework assignments, random pamphlets, maps, etc.
do i have a mental deficiency? maybe what is this special kind of autism i possess why do i have this priority on preserving personal history and collecting of useless papers
is it a complete waste of time? probably do i have to do it? yes
7.29.26 sometimes we have to break the illusion that the things we deem important in life are really that important. by doing things incomprehensibly pointless. things such as archiving useless papers for days